man,tml is labour dae.goin to ivan house wif fel n melvin to watch e movie blood diamond N departed.guess me dae will pass real quickly wif them around.

had my exams todae,it was difficult lor.stuck in almost half of e chinese paper.damn it.

aft tt went to lot one to buy feng ru belated bdae present.when we were in e lift, there were 3 other girls fr greenridge sec.i think they onli sec 1 or 2.then trying to act ah lian.they wanted to come out of e lift at e 4 th floor.but ppl were coming into e lift too.so was kinda "jammed " la.then one of them bang into pei qi real hard n barge her way out.but in tt split second,2 of e girls gt bang by e lift door.e door juz crash into their shoulder.they turned around n glared at us,esp michelle.cause they thought mic purposely go press for e door to close.i knew they were in pain la,can tell fr their expression.but they tried to pretend its nt painful.wakao ,really very funny.we held back our laughter.however,e moment e doors shuts.we broke out in into thunderous laughter, we forgt there were actually other ppl in e lift.man,we laughed like our screws were lose.i guess this teaches them nt to act ah lian.

oh ya,mic was nt e one who go press e close door button.e lift juz went "bonkers" n close.hahaha

finished my chinese paper today. paper1 was rather fine. still can cope. but when it comes to paper2, totally no mood to do already. fell asleep again during the test. this time, slept for only 15 minutes. hehe. great achievement.=)
paper2 was a killer paper. out of 10 questions in the close passage, i only know the answers for 2-3 questions, others all base on instinct. am so sure im going to fail for that section.
out of the 4 compres in my paper, i dont understand 2 compres that's of higher weightage. isnt that cool or what. i think this time round i really cannot pass my chinese already. the paper that i had today makes me hate chinese even more.

[[fel]]

juz finished reading miao chen blog .........man,she had an awesome poem.soooooooo TRUE.go read n u will understand..http://greenleavesbrownsticks.blogspot.com/

god definitely gives us chance.BUT there is sort of a limit i guess.e thought of god turning his back on me,juz scary.sometimes,really wonder ,since god loves us sooooooo much,y did he create this earth,where e evil also lives.y didnt he juz created heaven n put all of us there.then we can enjoy LIFE wif him,togther wif him.won't have so much suffering.on top of tt,jesus didnt hav to be nailed to e cross.someone ,please enlighten me.

anyway english paper is TML.gosh.haven't prepare.no materials to prepare.n i can sense e fear in me,so afraid i can't do e paper.wad if no vocab comes out of my blocked mind.wad if i totally freak out n jzu give up.argh!!!!so scared i wont do well.but tonite gonna pray pray pray to cast out e anxiety n fear.then hav a gd nite slp.fight e battle tml,wanna win it beautifully.last but nt least ,going to re-read my past essays.

oh ya,my previous post was like so emo.sry if it bored u .but juz couldnt take it.really needed it to let it out.gd news is,things seems to be working out.i am so sure god heard me.pray tt things will continue to improve.wahahahahha...

[shermaine]

school till 7pm!!!

school was great for the first part of the day, even during the most boring lesson. well had a geography test today, didnt study for it, but still able to do it. thank God.=)
got 26 marks for my english oral. cant believe it man. the one and only comment the examiner gave was "must pronounce your words clearly".-_-
fine. since its already over, shan't talk about it again.
after schhol, had this chinese mock exam. got to finish both paper 1 and 2 in 4 1/2 hours? haha.
able to endure the first 2 hours. but after the first paper, i was knock out. when i wake up, realise that i have 2 compre and 1 summary to do, and im only left with an hour plus. in the end, didnt finish the paper, but dont really matters to me. the teacher is not going to mark it anyway, i guess.=)

[[fe]]

i donno .......???????? i really hav no idea y is it affecting me ,even though it has happened such a long time ago.i feel weak.lousy.irritated.regretful whenever i think bout it.i nid yr strength.

you are always onli a few steps away fr me,yet u seemed so far away fr me ,like we nv knew each other.hav we become strangers and we didnt even realize?

y hav u decided to abandon god n walked yr own way.it pains my heart,yet it hurts him much more.when will u realize e road u r taking is nt going to take u any further n please RETURN.everybody in this family is so concern bout u,loves u ,cares for u.but y u feel tt they reject u.its weird.

we no longer spend hrs talking on e phone or meeting up n tok till late into e night,sharing our joy ,problems n everything under e sky.we stopped doing crazy stuff together.i seemed to lose e confidence to walk up n tok to u .because u r nt e real u.i don wanna tok to a fake.

its always so easy to stirke a conversation wif u ,but now its more challenging than climbing mount everest.argh!!!!!!! i once asked u ,if our frenship is changing,different.but u told me it wasnt, u r still u.E SAME U.even though i differ,i chose to believe yr words n onli hope for e better.i guess i was utterly wrong.

NOW,we hav almost nth in common to tok about.we don even look into each other eyes.u don seek me for help,when u nid it.e same goes for me. i also hav choose other ppl over u.this is because i jus feels insercure telling u.mayeb u don even bother.we walked past each other,as if we didnt see each other.

in a blink of an eye,we hav changed alot in each other's eyes.still cant figure out when all this started ,onli i had prayed hard enuf,maybe this wouldnt hav happened .....

[shermaine]

failure doesn't mean god has abandon u,but it means god has better plans for u .
failure doesn't mean u hav to give up ,but its another chance to start afresh

i think these words fr ps khong were great,though i cant rmb all.its really true ,at least for me.i think i believe there is hope ,destiny n i am an overcomer IN MY MIND!but i am nt convicted in e heart.quite sad la though.BUT i wanna believe in god ,in my heart too.will pray bout it

anyway aft service n processing,went for dinner at botak jones wif keith, ben , henzy, ivan, melvin, daniel,justin,anthony.man,it was great ! had such a great damn time wif these ppl.really entertained by them.i think next time ,when we r together,maybe can video down e whole gathering n post it up.

we were like testing each other on some lame "tests",like e black magic,how many mare mare jump over e wall,wad can we touch.at first we onli played to pass time,cause we hav wait for 45 min for our orders.keith n i were stuck at e, wad things can we touch.then he manage to found out before me.damn.i onli it,nearing e end of our meal.i was like guesing e whole time.we juz laughed at almost anything,esp me.haha.juz awesome"fellowhip"

[shermaine]

i think todae was kinda awesome.smth significant took place.will announce wad is it in a few daes,i guess.these past few days had been great.

anyway,yesterdae was my sch sports dae.i think those who knows him,were left dumbfounded.e story goes like this.e 4 times 100m race foe e B BOYS started out wif a boom.e champion house ,kestrel were lagging behind n they seemed to be in e last 2nd or 3rd placing ,aft e third runner finished.so this young man ,last runner for kestrel carefully waited for e baton to be passed to him,N "BLASTED OFF". his legs were like bicycle la.he chiong e min he gt his hands on e baton.thought he would slow down alittle aft 200 m.instead he picked up speed.I MEAN LIGHTNING SPEED.he overtook e rest of e runners n in seconds ,he was way ahead of them n finished a victorious FIRST! aint tt great,n he is none other than billy.this proves tt if u think u can do it,nth is impossible.

todae aft a"impt" lunch,went to bugis wif part of e cell ,n we caught e movie 200 pounds beauty.wakao,funny,hilarious,humourous,killing,hysterical...laugh until cannot take it.esp ,when i am sandwiched in btw denise n fel.they powerful surround system sia,better than e cinema one.we juz kept laughing n laughing n laughing .couldnt stop.i pity those ppl who sat near us,innocent victims.tortured by our laughter.hahahahahaha...

heh. hi all, im back to blog again. its been really a long long while since i last blogged. haha.
im feeling really really great now. not feeling a bit sad at all. isnt that great huh. haha.
well., today was kranji's sports day. it was my first year being so enthu on sports day. maybe its because this is my last year in kranji. participated in one of the race(first time after 4 years in the school), didnt win the race, but im still happy.=)
was screaming my lungs out during the cheer competition, this was my first time seeing my house so enthu in cheering. for the past years, nobody in my house bother to cheer. well done guys. heh.
the happiest thing of all, my house wasnt the overall loser(we used to be overall loser for every year).yay man!
anyway, thanks shermaine for the things you told me a few days ago. that really woke me up.=)

wel,todae had my eng prelim oral.my examinar was ms serene lai[my eng teacher].i kinda pray tt i will hav a "gd " examiner.n god answered my prayer.when i saw ms lai,i felt more relaxed n nt as nervous.because it was someone i know.but there was another indian teacher wif her.overall, i think i did okay.ni knew god was wif me...

i really pray tt at this pt of time,when this family is at e weakest.god hands will be upon them.god will block all doors ,so tt e evil one cannot attack us.i believe god can turn things aorund,no matter how big is yr problem.because nth is too big for him to handle or too small for him to care.onli when we r weak will then he be strong.u mus believe tt his plan for u is always good.[STATED IN BIBLE] rmb e breakthorugh god has promised for this family.don give up.hang in there.juz hand it over to him n he will take care of it.

[shermaine]

wah ,didnt realize e last post was on wed,until a min ago,denise told me real "nicely"!!!

yesterdae cell was diff for me n siok yit.because we me n sy join kelly cell.e girls r really diff fr my sis .errrrr,nt very used to it.cause all my sis n i r really loud de.but bo bian la,hav to follow god's plan.i know god gonna help me blend into this new family.anyway,kelly is really gentle unlike some of her sis.haha..

went to gym this morning wif pei qi.both of us didnt sae where we suppose to meet.so we ended up waiting for each other at diff places.i kept callin her n she didnt pick up.so i walked around e place theni finally caught sight of her.she was standing at e staircase there.luckily i walked around.if nt donno wait until wad time.

so we ran,lifted some weights n had a gd time laughing.haha..feels gd to sweat it all out.

tml goin to ah gong tomb at lim chu kang. dad sae ah ma they all ordered to meet at 7.30 am. so dad asked me to wake up at 6 .oh my gosh, its like so early la.glad tt my my parents n ah ma r christians,so i wont be forced to take joss sticks.pray tt i wont gt bitten by mosquitoes!

[SHERMAINE]

argh........thought my throat gtting so much better.but e virus "ressurected" n attacked me todae ,AGAIN!!this time round,its worse.my throat feels really soar n gt a very irritating ,woody feeling.its like there's rough wood stuck in my throat.my throat also itches inside,so i feel like scratching, but i cant, cause it wont work.freaky!

i lead some cheering practice wif my house today n e throat really giving me trouble.so wanna slit my throat open n scratch it.super duper peh chek.

coughing like siao,n dad sae i siao too.because even though i coughing,i still gulping down ice cold water n on top of that i ate spicy chilly onion wif stingray,juz couldnt give it a miss,cause my dad 1st time cookin tt dish.

exams starting next week,fast!

[shermaine]

finally,i am gtting better.my infected throat is no longer hurting so much.nose is clearing up.hope it will be well in no time...

i getting e hang of CHEMISTRY ,finaLLY!!!!!!!haha..todae was chem common test n i know how to do 99.99% of e qn.aweeeeeeeeesome.so clever.its been so long since i felt this way.gonna continue to strive for better results,nt giving up!haha

i gave e mass run a miss todae n went straight home aft sch,to complete some of my stuff n e main reason was,i forgt to bring my pe shirt.hehe..i guess tml i gonna take my nafa.

found a nice spot at e rooftop to take our fam.potrait......

but i didnt noe how to come down!

still trying hard to figure a way down!

billy wif 2"cuties" stozer n josh.


at e playground


nice view behind?



we take pic almost of anything!

don we look tall?


wad is tt pose?

hahahahaha.....i finally went to viviocity! i muz admit its big,but there isn't much for teens to shop.they hav alot of high end shop.

went wif my bro n sis[billy,stozer ,joshua, peiqi ,kc.].initial plan was to meet up n go town watch movie.when we arrived at outram park station, e guys juz chiong out e door.me n pq juz shocked lor.we quickly dash out of e door,before it shuts.suddenly,everybody blur blur then go viviocity.haha nt bad la.watched e movie NO.23 .okok only la.until now,i still cant figure out y e no.23 can drive someone nuts.

aft movie,billy n kc left .so e rest of us went window shopping. [sian] so we had a brilliant idea,went to e rooftop to take pic.haha.had dinner at carls jr.we had a pretty interesting conversation,digging out some dirt fr e guys.

juz had a great time.gt to know joshua alot more.

[shermaine]

oh yeah.......yesterdae i was invited to koh house for good friday.didnt wan to go initially,but aft much persuasion,i went.all boys except me n mrs koh.kinda awkward at 1st,however ltr on,manage to "bond" wif them..keith played some games,nt bad!mr koh hilarious lor.oh watch a short snippet of passion of e christ,where jesus was crucified on e cross [PAINFUL!!!].i think god moved some of their hearts,n guess wad they will be coming to church tml!hallelujah.

we played a card game called citedel.i team up wif melvin.he is a good teacher.ivan very sway during e game.ben was like e quiet one n then he"secretly" winnign e game.anthony is a professional theif,he steals till nobody noes.keith n e boys was working really well as a team.e whole time was juz great la.thanks for inviting .

oh ya,those who were at koh's house noe tts I CANT COOK RICE!!!

nth much to blog todae,cause everything went well in sch.cant wait to end tml,then fri will arrive!! GOOD FRIDAY! "celebrate,jesus celebrate"..gonna go study my chem test.

wad e heck...quite pissed by my maths teacher.yesterdae,my class gt back our maths tests paper,on differentiation."more than half e class failed,e rest also nt so gd la."exclaimed my maths teacher,before giving out e papers.

i thought my name would be under e fail category,but kinda surprise when my teacher called my name n i passed.guess wad my teacher said"ehhhh..shermaine ah,FIRST TIME AH!!!!.................nt bad la"he remarked.

so sacrastic,might as well don sae la.still purposely say it infront of e whole class n some of them were like laughing at me.gosh, my teacher muz hav thought sheer luck,nt effort tt i gt my marks.argh!well,shadnt care bout these ppl.i know i deserve my grades,because i DID PUT IN ALOT OF EFFORT!!! n of cause by god's grace.haha....

super duper HAPPY la...

wow,my dae was simply aweeeeeeeesome.haha.so many to give thanks for..

i started my dae wif a laugh.haha.i had fel on.sms her"sry sis cant go church todae,hurt my back,in hospital".guess wad.she gt so worried n asked me how was i.etc.told her it was jzu a april fools joke n she was like,awww!haha.ltr in e train wif fel n ivan on e way to church.we pranked alvin n rong hui.they were too gullible la.both their reaction juz funny la.[shadn't elaborate,if nt they will be paiseh]

aft service,me n fel went for dinner wif ronghui cell.ronghui invited us.fel n i were tricked by keith on e "buffalo wings" thingy.we really believed buffalo hav wings.he even asked us to go hav a look at kenny rogers n american restaurant menu,on e buffalo wings.gd one there.

on our way walking to suntec.keith had this singapore map.he pretended to be a tourist,speaking in a american accent.he kept callin my name in tt accent n asked me "tourist " qn..wah,laugh like hell la.super funny lor.his aim was to irritate me,but i waan't la.simply hilarious.e laughter did nt stopped there,it continued in N.Y.D.C...wif them toking bout n.s. ..."more muscles ,more muscles"[onli ppl present,understnads]

took e train home wif ivan ben keith n henzy.anyway,thanks keith,for wanting to explain to me e jokes in e reader's digest..appreciate it.

i really thanked ronghui for inviting me to this dinner..his family juz gave me alot of joy through continuous laughter.haha.really brighten up my dae.very encouraged by them la.thanks for helping me understand e phrase"one big family"..love ya ppl.

[shermaine]