i donno .......???????? i really hav no idea y is it affecting me ,even though it has happened such a long time ago.i feel weak.lousy.irritated.regretful whenever i think bout it.i nid yr strength.

you are always onli a few steps away fr me,yet u seemed so far away fr me ,like we nv knew each other.hav we become strangers and we didnt even realize?

y hav u decided to abandon god n walked yr own way.it pains my heart,yet it hurts him much more.when will u realize e road u r taking is nt going to take u any further n please RETURN.everybody in this family is so concern bout u,loves u ,cares for u.but y u feel tt they reject u.its weird.

we no longer spend hrs talking on e phone or meeting up n tok till late into e night,sharing our joy ,problems n everything under e sky.we stopped doing crazy stuff together.i seemed to lose e confidence to walk up n tok to u .because u r nt e real u.i don wanna tok to a fake.

its always so easy to stirke a conversation wif u ,but now its more challenging than climbing mount everest.argh!!!!!!! i once asked u ,if our frenship is changing,different.but u told me it wasnt, u r still u.E SAME U.even though i differ,i chose to believe yr words n onli hope for e better.i guess i was utterly wrong.

NOW,we hav almost nth in common to tok about.we don even look into each other eyes.u don seek me for help,when u nid it.e same goes for me. i also hav choose other ppl over u.this is because i jus feels insercure telling u.mayeb u don even bother.we walked past each other,as if we didnt see each other.

in a blink of an eye,we hav changed alot in each other's eyes.still cant figure out when all this started ,onli i had prayed hard enuf,maybe this wouldnt hav happened .....

[shermaine]