last nite went to witness brian n kaiyee bap.haha.glad to see them gttin baptise.i think this is one of e biggest decision in life.n they made e right choice.

was tokin on e phone wif kaiyun till like 2+ aft i reached home.talk bout lots of stuff.mostly girls tok.haha..some things i gt to noe onli yesterdae.was an enriching chat.did nth much la yesterdae.

todae i went to have lunch wif my mum ay bt panjang plaza.ate delifrance,e food was ok onli.but e mini eclair were great.then accompanied her to buy clothes.went to shop for grocery.bought lots of chocolate.i love crunchie!well now i m at home.wondering wad to do next.

somehow don hav e mood to do anything.don wan to think.haiz,guess its e effect of my a maths retest.i was stucked in almost every question.just couldnt think.my brain was "jammed".i already hav a rough idea wad kind of marks i will gt.but i still wan to believe that god will perform a miracle.only hope is in him!

fr tue to this morning,i went for cell advance.it was at aloha resorts near old changi hospital.it was combined wif eejay dy n juliee cell.gt to noe this family more.like jessica,cheryl,joadine.really could see e desire in them to want to noe me n e rest of e family.they r fun ppl.

there were many sessions.but i think e session conducted by eejay talk to me e most.it was about e fathers love n we r children of god.i have always heard bout fathers love n i thought i knew it liao.but onli aft e session.i was really touched by it.now i truly understand fathers love.god used ky to tell me that he loves me, please wif me,very happy wif me n lots more.wah,imagine god tellin u that!really nth else matter lor.

oh ya, we watched a video of a son n father.e video was about e son is hadicapped,so he couldnt participate in a sch charity run.but when he told his father bout it.his father,who is 60+ yrs old pushed his son in e wheelchair n ran e race for him.they continued to joined many other marathon n even triathelon.e father worked so hard,jus to fufill his sons wish.yet when e father ran like"dog",e son will be e one crossin e finishin line 1st.aft watchin tt,i think i think i always saddened god,when i complain to him,unhappy when thing turn out wrong,questioning his love.yet he nv give up on me.continued to carry me on his back n ran this race for me.i love him!!!

one 2nd morning during morning devotion,god showed me this verse romans8:28 onwards.speak to me,cuz i was so worried n fearful of me upsomin amtahs retest.however,he said nth can separate me fr him.didnt he has his purpose for me.wasnt very asure of it.bt when juliee conductin session.i was freaked out,when she show us exactly e same verse as i read.wah,red alarm fr god.better believe in him liao! so i surrendered amths into gods hand,n focus on him 100%haha..god use many ways to speak to us.nid to be sensetive enuf la.

i think i grew spiritually.thats important to me.i wanna see breakthrough..

[shermaine]

thanksgiving

hi everyone..its been rather long ago since i last blogged..havent got the time to blog so frequent recently..had lots of events and things happening this holiday..
first of all..i want to wish whoever reading this post a merry christmas and a happy new year..wish you guys would have an enjoyable time with your family and friends..
well..was away for a 3-days camp few days ago..really learn alot during the camp..shall not go into details..if not this post would be a really really long one..haha..=)
this year's christmas was a significant one for me..cause its my first christmas after i accept christ..it was only yesterday that i know that christmas is a day where by we give thanks to he God..in the past..i always knew christmas as a day where by i will celebrate it with my friends and families..exchanging gifts..and play some games..
ok..now i know christmas is a day for thanksgiving..i shall now give thanks to those who had impacted me this year..
firstly..i want to thank God..he really had perform numerous miracles in my life..he has bless me in every area of my life..he never fails to provide me with whatever i asked from him..the unconditional love that he gave me is really priceless..i really want to thank him for everything that had happen in my life..and most important of all..i want to thank him for giving me such a wonderful spiritual family..=)
secondly..i want to thank shermaine..if she never brought me to the planetshakers concert..i dont think i will be who i am now..not only that..bringing me to church is only the beginning..we always share stuff with one another..even though we are in the same school for like 3 years already..we never knew each other..we only got to know each other when i accepted christ..and now..we are really good sisters..know lots of stuff about one another..i really thank shermaine..she really helped me alot in walking this path with God..=)
thirdly..i want to thank kaiyun[ahma] and Dy[ahpa]..they really helped me alot in walking the road with God too..they are the ones who will always be there when i need them..they are always very protective towards us..they often urge and encourage me to take up challenges..but they dont expect me to achieve excellent results..they just wish that i could do my best..although they might appear to be very scary sometimes.always wanting to know every singlr things happening in my life..but i guess thats their way of keeping a close contact with us bah..i really love them lots..theys really showed me what love really is and all i can say is they are really the best spiritual parents..even though they are not the ones whom brought me to church..but i really want to thank them for changing my life..=)
lastly..i want to thank all my friends and spiritual families..thank you guys for filling my life with unlimited joy and happiness..i also want to take this chance to say sorry to those i have let down..sorry guys that i always break my promise..i know recently i seldom spend time catching up with you guys..i hope you guys will understand..i want to thank those who are always by my side..giving me support and encouragement..you guys are the best..i love you lots..
erm..i shall end here now..its a really really long post..hope you guys enjoy reading it..again..i want to wish you guys a merry christmas and hope you guys will have a fruitful year ahead..=)

shocked..

last nite busy writing christmas msg for ppl..wah,really write till siao.before i knew it ,already 3+ am.suddenly billy called me,"shermaine,where u stay,now i at sheng shiong there."man,it was 3.37 am at tt moment.he bladed wif james all e way fr choa chu kang to bt panjang,siao lor!i was so shocked tt he actually meant wad he said .cuz at around 11+,he said he would come find me.but i didnt believe him.i kept mum bout my add.in e end gave up,so told him where i stayed.he managed to find my blk,which i thought he would gt lost la.my area abit like maze.initially,he promised to stay downstairs n juz waive n they would leave la.but james couted e lvl n they came up.couldnt stop them,it was too late.they made a din at my door.laughed ,tok so loudly.all i did was"shoooooooooo...shooo..!!"so afraid my parents would wake up.filled their bottles wif water n they left aft 10 mins.

FAMILY GATHERING!!!
yesterdae,we had a bbq at shuling houz.really different way of spending christmas.we had a lot of fun.esp victor.he was e "emcee n chef of e dae".taking down orders,bbqing e food,sayin jokes .simply awesome time la.everyone was juz enjoying themseleves in each other company.i stepped out of my comfort zone,n made an effort to go up to some of e sis to tok to them.haha..proud of myself to tok to high "S" ppl..

anyway,thanks ky n dy for sharing bout me.touched la,almost teared,but fight back!haha..will rmb wad u all said de.hope to hav more gatherin like this la.

camp happenings...

have been in camp fr tue to thur..really unusual camp.everything was so unexpected.cuz it was lead by god all e way.before even we left for camp site,it started to rain heavily.aft much waitin in tc chapel.e rain stopped.we had to walked all e way to ecp to set up tent.soon,it rain again really like CATS N DOGS!!!had to stay inside tents .our tents flooded wif water.no choice,so moved everything back to tc chapel.set up tent ,then nv use."fun" hor.we slpt in blk 80 for 2 nite.we played a lot of games in e camp.we played human cluedo.fun lor.even though it was 12- 4am.gt to see eejay castin as lin po po.he used every chance to play us.he asked my grp to do taiji wif him,like fools lor.but on e account on e clue ,we did la.keep pokin his stomach.very fun..saw some other ppl who acted really well.guang han is another one who i wan to applaud .born to be a ah beng la.so fierce.i gt to noe a few ppl whom i nt close to before e camp.eg,ivan ,eejay ,yiling,rong hui.i keep jokin or bullyin this ppl ,tts y we noe each other deeper.i bully ronghui until he sae"please let me go.please"haha..this big guy who have a fierce look actually sae plaese.but he entertained me n fel till we laughed ,close to tears.i really wan to thank those ppl whom tolerate our crazy laughter n continued to make us luagh.

now for some serious stuff.one 1st nite.i wan to thank lord.as ps adrian was preachin about a tender n undived heart.he told us we nid our family.holy spirit started to stir in me.holy spirit told me."u nid yr spiritual family,if nt U CANNOT MOVE FAR!!U NID TO CONFESS YR ANGER OR HATRED AGAINST 'EM.EVEN ITS LIKE 0.00001% ONLI."i was so relactant..some how paiseh lor.i am always e one who appears to be very strong de.puttin on e strong front actually.but i wept when i saw e video of "e passion of e christ"see how god lower himself for us.i raise white flag to god la.bo bian,i told myslef if i don go ,then reallly disobeying god.i held fel hand n walked up to siok yit.i don care bout face liao.i cried n confess my frustration n anger infront of her.i humbled myself.went on to every sister to confess of my ugliness.prayed n prayed.soon,e family was together prayin as one ,wif one heart ,one voice,one common goal.every single sis n bro humblin themselves ,crying seekin forgiveness fr one another.holy spirit was strong man!!still prayin when everyone sitted down le.ppl lookin at us wif ? on their face.u maybe thinkin y wan so diu lian..i really don give a damn bout face now.i really wan to see this family GROW SO STRONG,HARD AS METAL!i wan us to walk as A FAMILY.only then we can go far for god,shine for god.i noe e lord has changed our heart to love one another fr tt nite onwards.jus u wait n see, how this family goin to go all out for god as ONE!we hugged one another aft tt,tt simple hug actually meant alot to everyone.symbolise love,care.i think we needed it la.

sry i goin to continue,its ok if u don wan to read.but i think i nid to write to give glory to god.

god didnt juz stop on e 1st nite.e holy spirit worked on e 2nd nite too.sometimes i sae harsh words to ppl n they hurt those ppl somwhow.n one of 'em is my da ge la(alvin).ky shared wif us about e one who brought her to god.she was so grateful to tt person.ltr HS reminded me of alvin.he was e one who put in so much effort to reached out to me n brought me to church n gt me to be saved.yet,i didnt thank him for tt.once again.god wanted me to humbe myself n go to alvin n thanked him.haiz,struggle a bit n pluck my courage n go up to him lor.before finishing my 1st sentence,i wept.so grateful n thankful to him for his love for me la.told him all that was bottled inside me.those touching stuff.haha..nt like me la.he also very touched.but very paiseh to cry infront of him.we prayed for each other intensely.i claim that prayer. i noe we will continue to grow n love each other even more as a family.we will be more sensitive to one another.

sum up e things,lord taught me alot of things.e big word is "family"..in everything we do,we nid to work as a family.we nid one another,no matter how strong u maybe.

small testimony to glorify god!

let me start wif e surprise which really shocked me when i returned home fr camp.mum told me i gt $150 fr moe(ministry of education).i didnt believe her la,cuz this yr results nt enuf to qualify for schlorships la.i noe i disappointed my parents la.but when she showed me e letter.i was lost for words.the letter wrote"shermaine lim yu mei won eagles award &$150".wah,really happy n surprised lor.i juz praise e lord.he blessed me!y do i sae he bless?i was worrying for e past few wks how to pay mum ky back e mol tickets n some other money.all this money adds up to more than 100 +.burden in my heart for quite awhile.god heard me n he blessed me wif this $150 ..ITS NT COINDEDENCE!this eagles award is onli for ppl who is an super outstanding leader n e teacher muz write a report to nominate u.then e moe will see if really eligible before givin it to u.nt an easy title to gt.really nv thought i would gt this award la.nt a prefect or cca leader in sch.so all e more it is harder for me to qualify for this award.juz thank god all tt he blessed me.hallelujah.ppl pray when u nid smth really urgently,u nv noe wad god will do!

terrible week

hey guys..im back here to blog again after one week of fasting of computer for MOL..=)
well..the fasting week was very terrible..not only i felt tempted to use the computer..many problems popped out too..dont think i will sure the datails of my problems here..
i havent been sleeping really well for that fasting week..no matter how tired i was..my eyes just couldn't be shut..hence..i only got to sleep less than 5 hours per day..that's not the worst part..the worst part is..the people i invited for MOL last minute sms me and said that they couldnt make it..but thank God..i am still able to find friends to come and watch the show at the very last minute..
i am very sure God has planted seed in every single person that had went for the show..its just a matter of time the seed will start to grow..=)
today was the most terrible day i felt for this whole week..the day started off pretty well..service was great..was feeling very tired initially..but was energiesd after drinking a can of coke..
pastor khong didnt preach really much today..the three main points for today's service is believe..drink and thirst for holy spirit..
when pastor khong was praying for his 144 and youthnet 144..i could feel my legs shaking uncontrollably..and my heart was aching but i just couldnt cry..
when everybody was praying..i kept questioning God cause i was doubting about his presence..but soon..he proved to me he is really present..tears was beating around in my eyes..
in the evening..i was so happy that my whole family is going for MOL..at first..my sis didnt want to go..but after much persuation..she finally agreed to come..but things just wouldnt end perfectly..half way through the show..my dad wanted to leave..cause he felt very bored and he dont understand chinese..thus my whole family left half way through the show..i felt so disappointed..i was crying silently the whole journey back home..i asked God why things like that still happens no matter how much or how hard i pray for my family..is God testing my faith?i really had no idea..nothing seems to go right for the whole of this week..

dy is back..

for e past few days, i stayed at home,so nth to blog about.juz slack at home .

todae,woke up quite early for a reason.cuz nid to go airport.suppose to meet fel at cck mrt .but saw ben,he was also goin to e airport..haha.coincedence.we waited for fel n siok yit together.in e end,there were fel me ben sy samson henzy goin to airport.we reached there early,so we had burger king.ben was kinda sian diao when we eatin bk.haha.cuz now food is nt worth e money.when we about to finish our food,we called brian to ask which gate dy would be arriving."his arrival time has changed to 4.30!"all of our jaws dropped.man,we didnt noe !it was 2 n e half hr before 4.30..so we wanna go trybe centre,however it was closed.so we cont to stay at bk.tok ,laugh ,lame lame .played wif a toy fr e kids meal.finally it was 4.30.went to e gate to wait for him.suddenly,this familiar figure appeared! "DY..DY..DY"everybody yelled in exuberance. we ran n hid behind a pillar.but dy still saw us! no pt.dy looks e same,except slight thinner.really missed me for e past mths.looked forward to catching up wif him.too bad he didnt had time juz no.he need to attend a trybe staff function.

anyway tml is mol,i pray that there will be a mighty harvest!believe that my friends will be touched n saved.so excited..

no title.

yeaterdae we celebrated cindy bdae aft service.e cake was deli-CIOUS!!headed for tampines ikea wif mummy ky n e rest.damn lots of ppl.everywhere also ppl.no mood to walk also.it was quite warm inside.its very difficult for u to shop, cuz way too many ppl le.we gave up n decided to go tampines for dinner.we were at ikea for less than an hr.ate pastamania.steven junior joined us when we finished.shop at life book shop.ky showed me this book"jesus freak".she shared wif me wads e book about.man,this book is awesome.now,i really want to reead this book.if anybody happened to have it,pls lend me.ky bought 2 books.she lend "bait of satan" to me.started reading last night.it is a thinking book.share more when i finish reading

cell was different..

todae i anchored e cell .mummy kaiyun had cell advance todae,so i took up e challenge to lead my sisters.i was a little nervous when i was waiting for some of them to reached .but od calmed me down la.i opened in prayer n continued to tok to them bout magic of love.as our main purpose todae was to pray for mol.we split up in 2 to pray for one another frenz n family members who r comin .aft tt, we gathered as a grp again n i touch on e topic consolidation.it was e 1st time ,all my sisters looked at me.scary!!! serious sia..suddenly,e door behind me opened,i saw a familiar face.it was kaiyun! man,freaked e hell out of me.at tt moment ,i didnt noe how to carry on.like cannot make any mistakes lor.bo bian ,still continued.we started to pray intensively for mol.e crews, faith to see beyond e impossible,ourselves,etc...i closed in prayer.yeah ,e whole thing was finally over.phew...haha.quite an enjoyable expereince aft all.learnt quite alot.nid to tok confidently,nid to be more prepared e next time n so on..oh ya,e holy spirit was so strong at one pt of time.for e 1st itme, i could fell it so strongly.praise god for tt.he is real.

boring..

woke up todae at 10+ ..had breakfast ,watch tv.bathe.had lunch.went to source for information on e net for my scrapbook.hav to hand in on fri.time passed really quickly.befor ei knew it,i had been on my com for 5 hrs.by seven i completed finding out e information.now juz waiting to print it out.initial plan,was to go down to golden landmark n hav it printed out.but each piece ,b3 size n coloured cost $2.i had to print at least 8.told my mum bout it.FINALLY,she came to her senses,she will go buy e printer ink tml.haha..don hav to go all e way down to print tt freaky few pieces of paper.can slp till wadever time i desire.sweet!hopefully,she buys e correct ink.

2006

Its only 20+ days more to the end of year 2006..for the past few days..i have been thinking about what have i done and what are the events that had taken place in the year 2006..
many big and small things that had happen in year 2006 kept appearing before me..
things like i have accepted christ and i had joined trybe are the big events that had took place in my life in year 2006..
there's one word that keeps striking me for these past few days..and the word is friend..come to think of it..i felt really sorry towards some of my friends..
in 2006..i got to know alot of people..from church..trybe and from school..many of them had became my good friends for a short period of time..but after some time..we start to lose contact cause i got to know new friends again..and usually..i will give most of my time to the new friends that i just knew..
i have been thinking of solutions to solve this problem..cause many of my school friends kept complaining that after i had accepted christ..its very difficult for them to ask me out cause im always busy with church activities..
how am i going to keep close contact with both my old friends and my new friends?suggestions please..
[[fel]]

i beat myself..

man,todae woke up n tried to gt out of bed.but i couldnt.my whole body 's muscle was as stiff as a metal rod.aft much strugglin n courage,i force my legs to bend n stand..ouch.it was very painful.its like e muscel gonna tear! go try running 10 km yrself n u will noe!

yesterdae's 10 km wasnt easy to complete.woke up really early.i had a tummy upset ,which cause me to be unable to go there by train.had to wake my dad up to ask him to fetch me there.

kaiyun showed us e finished line! i was so afraid i couldnt step on tt line! we started e race as a family.however slowly ,mummy ky figure disappeared .she was way behind us.we tried to slow down,but she was nowhere to be seen.i ran till 1.5 km,when i began to slwo down.i asked cherie n fel to go without me n i will catch up.in my mind,i was tryin to shake them off.ran by myself .i was so lonely,nobody encouraging me on.i couldnt take it anny longer,so i ran hopin to catch up wif them.ran n ran,at 3 km+ .saw cherie n caiyun.yeah,finally see a familiar face.we ran together,spurrin each other on!so gd to run together.

i ran wif cherie most of e time.i was exhausted for e last km. but when caiyun cherie n me heard e music n cheerin as we approach e last 200 m.our legs were like spring.we hold our hands n sprint.but WE STOPPED TO WAIT FOR MUMMMY KY,even though e finish line was like 15 m away.aft much waiting,we SAW kaiyun,who was struggling.when she saw us,can tell fr her face.she was stunned to see us wait for her.we ran toward her n held her hand ,ran to e finish line TOGETHER.WE FINISHED E RACE STRONG N AS A FAMILY.yeah!!!!!!

i will nv forgt tt moment,its so...cant explain in words.

to mummy ky,we will finish this race together strong n as a family forever!!!love u..

back in one piece

im back in one piece from the 10km marathon!!!=)
felt super exhausted after the run..but..also feeling very great that i have completed it..only regret is that didnt complete it as a team..=(
before the marathon..shermaine and i were always discussing about how would we die during the 10km..but now..we will say.."2. 4km or 3.2km is nothing to us anymore.." quoted from shermaine..haha..
only thing is that the aches and pains we had after the run is really unbearable..no matter how many salonpas we paste on our body doesnt really seems to help..suddenly..i had this feel that i had aged alot..
lesson learnt after the run..encouragement is really important in a marathon..just like what ahma had said..a marathon like this is just like a run and our goal is jesus..we might be feeling very weak spiritually..but the people around us might not be feeling so..so..they would be the ones encouraging us to finish up the race..=)
slept really early last night..then just woke up not long ago..but still am feeling very sick and tired..so i am going back to sleep again..
[[fel]]

belated fri post

i went to town wif my bunch of frenz.e trip was ok,there were laughter,teasing..but somehow,still gt some distance.overall,e trip was enjoyable.

i was late for cell last nite.guess i left ceneleisure too late.cell was fun..kaiyun used acting or skit to bring out e message .we all had our own roles.kaiyun-god,dunlin-evil,shuling-father,siokyit-mother,caiyun n dennise-frenz.I WAS E MAIN CAST-child!!!"I" [child] was always put down by my parents,they didnt allow me to go church.frens were drifting away fr me,cuz i am "too holy". "i" was too busy for them.they stopped goin out wif me.but "i continued to pray too god, even though e evil was discouraging me.met "god in heaven..haha."he told me to stay faithful n those who isnt saved r in hell.e whole skit was hilarious.e "god" was laughing away.

e message was we cannot be a double minded person.we cannot serve both god n money ,stated in e bible.but maybe for many of us is,we cannot serve studies n god at e same time.studies is our responsibility,nt purpose!double minded person is GOD ENEMY!!god told us that we shld love our enemy.but when god said double minded ppl is his enemy,shows how much god dislike tt.god also warned us if we r neither hot or cold,he will spit us out fr his mouth!we must stop being double minded.stop serving e world.start thinking wad r e practical steps to take,so that we will nt be DOUBLE MINDED

shermaine

im really tired this time round

wahahaha..completed 6km today..so proud of myself..=)
this 6km run isnt a very easy one..was already very tired after running for 2km..cause i was running on sandy path..double of the effort needed for me to run on normal path..
thats not the worst part..the worst part is..i have to run on muddy path too..cause the reservoir is doing some construction work..so was force to run on muddy path..think that path is about 2km long..
extremely tired after the run..and this marks a beautiful end to my training for the 10km on this sunday..pray that i will be in my tip-top condition on this sunday for the 10km marathon..cause im not feeling very well now..will be resting for the whole of tomorrow..no more exercise..=)
[[fel]]