Saturday, February 03, 2007

feelin so much better aft lst nite santification,which was by ps eugene..e msg really spoke to me.
if u read my previous posts,i was feelin kinda down,n doubted god capability.so actually,i wasnt really communicating wif god.didnt do my daily devotion ,felt tt goin to church was startin to become a chore.also didnt noe y i felt tt way..

but ps eugene told us tt when our devotional time or quiet time is nt steady,then it would inevitably affect our walk wif god.our light will become dim.i think tts y i easily doubt god or feel spiritually down.so i commited myself to set aside a time for god everyday,to read e bible.however,many of us don like readin e bible,because its juz a book to us wif lots of text in it.smth like a manual.actually its nt,if u put it another way,its actually love letters fr god to us.its precious n confidantial.when we think tt way,i m sure we would wan to READ IT everynow n then.

e msg tt speaks to me most was,"god miss me".god use ps eugene to tell me ,he misses me alot.upon hearing tt,my heart ache,because i noe i let god down.i felt so foolish n regretted about doubting his presence.i forsake him,when i am down.yet,he waited for me faithfully.i really question myself,wad have i done to deserve this LOVE!

i am too focus on consolidatin others,helping others on their problems,addin oil to ppl's lamp.BUT i forgt e most impt thing, my walk wif god.i forgt tt i ,myself nid to walk wif god,nt juz others.he misses e time when i was closely bonding ,deepening wif him evry now n then, even though i wasnt helpin others at tt time.all he nids is my attention to be upon him n nth else matters.we no nid to be great pastors,superb cell leaders or even to hav disciples ,to make him love us.we try to do things to make him love us more.but his love for uS is always unconditional ,be it how lousy or gd we r.GOD MISSES US!let us all go back to him,reconcile e replationship .its never too late,as long as we go back to him..he is waitin,don procrastinate any longer.go forth n be wif him again.he will never despise u!!!

[shermaine]

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